Rawan5 Years
5 years ago today God gave me a second chance at life.
I can’t tell you why He chose me. I was no one special, just an ordinary nerd pursuing a master’s degree in architecture. Now, I feel like my life is anything but ordinary. It’s messy and scary and nerve-wracking and filled with all the feels. And it all brought me to art. So here I am, living a life I never imagined for myself. And I get to share this new life with you through what we call Project TheraPaint.
January 20th, 2017 repeats itself everyday; in the form of flashbacks, nightmares, pain, and longing. That day changed me and everyday after that has been HARD. Nonetheless, God spared me. Not many others can say the same. So I knew I had to find my new purpose. I found it in art. Through Project TheraPaint and The Art Spread I’m able to connect with people, to share their pain, and to serve in ways I couldn’t before. So, here’s to January 20th, the most haunting yet influential day of my life.
I painted ‘5 Years’ on January 20th to allow myself to work out my feelings on the 5th year anniversary of the hit.
I felt so many things. It started with aggression. The brush strokes were large and sharp. Then the sadness made its way into the piece. I sunk into a mood of melancholy as I layered on the blue and white hues. When I made my way to the final details of purples, I felt a sense of connection. I felt reconnected to my art; reminded of why I paint. And that took me to a place of gratitude and refuge. Painting is my therapy and there’s no relationship like the one I have with the canvas.
Art has taught me to open myself up to the world. Trauma has taught me to accept this new version of myself. I’ve learned to be compassionate, to forgive, and to let go of the person I can’t be again. I’ve learned that I can be other things. I can do other things. Amazing things like P A I N T ❤️
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With love,
