‘Lacking’

Alcohol Ink on Mineral Paper 

9″ x 12″ – Custom Matted to 12″ x 16″

Available at $125

frame not included 

‘Lacking’ happened when I hit one of the several breaking points this year.  I missed the simple things.  I missed fun, laughter, adventure, excitement, and pure happiness.  I missed everything.  I felt as if my life had been lacking these attributes since January 20th, 2017.  Since that day, all things “me” had to do with the accident, recovery, rest, stress, anxiety, and basically nothing worthwhile (for the most part).  My parents, brother, and boyfriend have been saints through it all.  Still, their support wasn’t enough to make up for the lack of independence, lack of travel, lack of concerts, lack of movie theater dates, lack of part-taking in volunteer events or helping around the house.  As silly as some of these things are, there comes a day every now and then where going out to the mall just to get out of the house became a luxury very much missed. And that longing brought up many other reminders.  Those reminders brought up feelings of anxiousness.  The anxiety brought about anger.  And with anger came desperation. Through desperation, I made this.  And this is what Lacking feels like to me.